Where I Went Instead

May 1

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In my last post, I talked about how I tend to disappear when things feel overwhelming.

And this time, I really did.

I stopped trying to force myself back into…anything really.
The routines, the ideas, the pressure to “get back on track”…I let it all go quiet.

And in that quiet, I drifted.

Not far, I don’t think.

I didn’t mean for it to become a whole world.

But it did.

I ended up pouring hours into my Animal Crossing: New Horizons game.

At first it was just something to pass time.

A distraction. Something small and easy.

But slowly, it started to feel familiar in a way I didn’t expect.

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Searching for the perfect brick paths, moving items around, paying attention to ridiculously tiny details no one else would probably notice.

It became this antique, greenery-filled space.

A little worn, but intentional and fun.

The kind of place I think I’ve always been trying to create.

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I didn’t realize it at the time, but I wasn’t disconnected from my creativity.

I had just moved it somewhere safer.

Somewhere without pressure.

Without expectation.

Without that constant voice asking if it was good enough.

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It feels like stepping into my mind a little.

I don’t think I was meant to stay there forever.

And I didn’t.

My island feels… complete, at least for now.

And somewhere along the way, I found my way back to painting again.

Not in a big, dramatic way.

Just quietly.

thank you for reading.

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